I'm fine....really...

Like duh...you're so obviously not.....and you see the stares telling you that too...the kind of "what is wrong with you today la? and don't tell me you're fine...I'm not falling for that..." stare. Yes, I'm not fine. How? What to do? Not as though there's a whole lot I can do bout it. Sometimes I really hate feeling like this. I just want to be able to sit there content and smiling, to laugh with people, and to just enjoy the fun and hype with friends...especially with hype ppl like the CFers...but its not always an option open to me. So many things on my mind right now. Sigh. What to do....If only I could forget everything I want to forget, and ignore everything I want to ignore.

I need You, more than words can say.