I believe in You

Finally, back blogging again. Been lazy for a really long time, but figured that with my semester being this insane, (3 subs in 7 weeks, student council election campaign, cell-group coordinator), I would need an outlet to just blabber it all out before I go insane. Anyway, I'm not here to complain, neither did I make this blog for complaints.

The reason I'm here is because of a revelation I just had. My music player was on shuffle, and the song To The Ends Of The Earth by Hillsongs was playing in my head. Just then the lyrics of "Jesus I believe in You" came, and that line hit my like a thunderbolt.

For weeks now I've been struggling with my emotions, of trying to let go yet not wanting to. I've resorted to praying and praising every time it feels like my heart is wanting to go its own way, thanking God and praising Him for He cares for me and wants the best for me. And that line struck me right in the heart, Jesus I believe in You.

It's so easy to sing it, but so difficult to live it out when I think about it. If I were to believe in Him, that would mean that I would have to let go once and for all of my emotions and desire, believing that He knows best for me and that He has better ideas. I knew that all this while, but when I had to sing those words, it rammed home the true "sacrifice" I'd have to make. Note that I actually wrote it as "sacrifice", because in the long run, it wouldn't be a sacrifice at all. Giving up something because I know God has something better isn't exactly sacrifice, not really I think, although right now it certainly feels that way.

Jesus I believe in You, and I would go to the ends of the earth for You.