Langkawi

Just got home 2 days ago....suffering from lack of sleep...and seriously people....its a nice island but if you go there without an experienced tour guide or planning...you can die of "excitement'...wasn't too bad la....had some fun touring the island and the sea tour also....didnt do snorkeling or any water sports coz tak ada teman...sigh...islands are fun only with friends...remember last year's pangkor trip with schoolmates...awesome-ness....ah.....underwater world was interesting tho...especially the star attractions...the 2 trained sea lions...Paul and Kara...or at least I think thats what they were called....haha...can do some amazing tricks like walking on front flippers and 1 hand/flipper stand..awesome..sadly dont have pics of them...somehow I cant find em in the camera....ah well.....

Just decided to take a picture of what we used to go around the island

Ye old faithful saga....manual....so jerk jerk jerk....since driver wasn't so used to it

Front view...(duh) dont ask why I took em..just felt like it...ehehe....

One of the first things I thought was "what's a penang car doing in Langkawi?"...lol..ah well who bothers...we drove round the island visiting several places...whatever you do...DO NOT visit Telaga Air Hangat...we thought it'd be nice...it turned out to be a small trickle from a plastic pipe underground...with warm water...and it filled a small stone container barely big enough for a person to squat in.....was pathetic...seriously...

Ah...anyway...all in all was ok...not too bad...but won't make it on my top 10 list of memorable events...hehe....thats about all the trashing and comments I want to give....

P.S.
The sea lions were really really awesome!

When all else fails I....

Hunger
Go to sleep

Thirst
Well...drink...what can you do....

Insomnia
Read...and read...and read even more

Temptation
Pray...

Disappointment
Play sports

Assignments
Leave it to the last minute hoping a miracle will happen

Choices
Choose the one that will honour You

Struggles
I count on You to bring me through

Exams
Eat the paper...nah...

When its raining
I snuggle up under the comforter in my cold room

When all else fails...I look to You, the Author and the Finisher...Lover of my soul....
When all else fails...I look to Jesus :)
Will you?

To live a life

Life's but a walking shadow,
A poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more.

-Shakespeare

As I begin this blog entry I have absolutely no clue as to what the title should be...perhaps it will come to me as I type....felt driven to type about life....not an aspect of it...but what it is, its core and essence....what is life?what is it to truly live?and what can be considered a worthwhile life?money,success,lying on your deathbed without a single regret?would that be a worthwhile life? most of us spend so much time filling our lives with stuff and trying to earn a living that we lose sight of the very purpose of life....that we forget to LIVE it

What is life to me?

*a few moments of deep contemplation*

I feel...to me...that life is a God-given chance...to make a difference in the world that He created...that our bodies in which we carry out our lives are merely tools, with the operator being our soul and spirit,without which we would only be a husk....(which is why machines and artificial intelligence can't ever live)..I feel that life is a chance given to us to do something worthwhile...and that everything else....handphones,houses,cars,etc...are merely add-ons....to making this "chance" we got more comfortable....

Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.
A person starts to live when he can live outside himself.

-Einstein

I feel those two lines hold deep meaning...in so many ways...when we get the chance to live...I believe we should make a difference..a change...however small....however insignificant...if it is for the better....is still a difference....at the end of the day...when all is said and done....the change for the better is still there....and when a person leaves this earth....that change for the better will be his (or her) legacy....

Life is something given to us by God and so we should appreciate and enjoy it

-Amanda Chua

Also true....what is life when we go around looking sad and sullen..complaining and being emo...God gave us a chance to LIVE...one chance for eternity...do we really want to spend it negatively?Some people are born with difficulties, and yet they take the chance they get to make a difference...can we not?

Love your neighbour as yourself

-Jesus

Once again, we see that one of the greatest commandments of God is to love your neighbour as yourself..to make a change in the world by showing kindness and love...to others...not just friends...speaking of which...it is a beautiful thing...because in friendship is when our "chances" that we have intercept and co-exist...and when we care for a friend..when we share and encourage each other..we make a difference...I'm not too sure how much people will agree with this...but personally I feel that almost every single friend of mine has impacted me in their own special way..whether the ones I just got to know or those that I've known for a long time...most of them have left a positive change in me....and I am the living testimony that their life has been worthwhile...at least to me....because they made that difference..that small difference that will never be forgotten or can never be erased

Here are two ways to live your life -
one is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is a miracle.

-Einstein

I choose option 2...I believe that everything in life is a miracle..performed by my awesome God way in advance so that it could all fall into place at that exact moment in time...I choose to believe that when I reach for my cup of coffee that God's miracle is there...that coffee was discovered when it was...and the freezer as well...and both of them coming together to form a wonderful cup of iced coffee for my enjoyment....

So what is important about life?God, the creator of life and so He is the most important...from personal experience, I once felt that God was cut off from me, that whatever I do would not suffice, that all hope was lost...and I can honestly say I felt life not worth living...a life without God is empty..Family..the people who have supported my all my life and will continue to be a part of it til I leave this earth...Friends...the awesome people who have made that difference in my life and filled it with so much....I can honestly say that compared to these three...the rest are immaterial....

So yeah...after a looong post...I think I've finally said whatever I wanted to say initially....

God, reveal to me Your purpose for me in life...that this chance You've given me will not be squandered...may we truly be able to offer up our lives as living sacrifices for the glory of Your name

Let now the weak say I have strength

By the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead

Let now the poor stand and confess

That my portion is Him and I'm more than blessed

Let now your church shine as the bride

That You saw in Your heart as you offered up Your life

Let now the lost be welcomed home

By the saved and redeemed those adopted as Your own
Amen.

Hold it....hold it.......

Patience has been the theme for me this past week.....

To hold my fingers away from the keyboard and computer games...well...the online ones...and wait for the exam week to be over....(not much good if im not studying....ah well....in my blood =P )

To hold my emotions in check when I'm dealt a long string of sarcastic words for messing up

To hold my head from exploding when I'm scolded for no reason-(now that's quite hard)

To wait til I can actually get out and enjoy with friends

To be patient just so I can exercise my existing patience to gain MORE patience

To reach for the pot only to find there's no more coffee-(unbearable)

And......

It's wearing thin....

Really thin.......

So.....anyone up for an ultra-rough game of basketball? :)

Running away

Been struggling with a problem.....I'm trying to run away from my past mistakes and all...don't want to even think of them... I know it's all settled and gone.....That God redeemed it all....but somehow the memories of it keep coming back....I guess this is one of the consequences of sinning.....and it seems the more I run the more it chases me....need a solution...any1 with similar experiences in the past..please comment...would love some advice right now...thanks

God...You be the solution...I trust in You....You redeemed me....and You can cleanse the slate for now and forevermore.....

Brace for it....

I am honestly not feeling in a jovial mood...I need someone to pour out to but hehe...oh happy coincidence...the people I usually pour out to are not online....

anyway..my title has 2 meanings...the first of which...I HAVE FINALLY TAKEN OFF MY BRACES!!!..weee!after 2 years of tightening and scratching myself and mess....its finally over...still...I do feel awkward...kinda like all gums and no teeth now...cant seem to feel them....anyway...thats the nice part...now for the other part...the not-so-nice 1...

I'm bracing myself...because I have to....won't share much of the details here...but I feel my current condition at home has got to change or I really really cant take it anymore...praying...really praying...and its getting harder and harder...it always seems to get harder the more I start pushing closer to God at times....argh...struggling alone is seriously hard...and though I know that I'm not alone....sometimes its hard to keep focus on God when things around me seem to be working against me....really really have to brace myself and keep my chin up..though for how long I can do that is a mystery....

Ah...You know...I know You know...and I believe You can and will do something....if You aren't already doing it....I shall walk...knowing You are with me...and I shall continue my race...no matter how tough it gets...because I know You are worth it...I only pray that I too...will be worth Your efforts....